"I'm wondering how long I should continue to keep this from her."

Why do you need to keep it from her? It doesn't seem to make sense unless you just don't want her to know and keep that as something for yourself.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER