Ok- Leaving to meet STBX shortly to see if we can work out terms of divorce between ourselves. Honestly I feel nauseous, uncharacteristically shaky and just want it to be over with. STBX has always said he doesn't want to fight - but nor does he have any idea about what I want. I think its all pretty reasonable - but "reasonable" doesn't really describe him lately.
Since the revelation that he has been living with OW since BD and exposing kids to her - I have been remarkably calm and resolute - my up and downs have stopped. I have not had any doubts since that day about dropping the rope. I think I'm ok - but sometimes I worry that maybe I'm just numb.
