Thanks everyone .
He has just started seeing a counsellor .

He went out but I made home come home so we could talk.

He had a bad day at college , he said 4 hours of writing . I did explain to him that the course he was doing was a lot of academic stuff and he said but it's hard with all the [censored] that's been going on . I asked him what he meant , wasn't sure what he was referring to and he said mum leaving .
I nearly broke down infront of him but held it together and replied that we need to all stick together and that his attitude toards his sister makes it hard for me when I've got to be a referee all the time .

So hope we can all hold it together for another few weeks and hope no more flash ups .

Really feel like sending W a text thanking her for messing up not mine but also her own kids life .

It's a real shame that W has no idea of the impact of her actions . I would have her back home right know if it meant my son would settle down and do better at college .

Times like this when I want to use OM as a punch bag .

I haven't taken my kids out to watch the local fireworks for fear she maybe there with him .

Wish I could erase her from all our minds .


Me 40
W 37
Together 22 years
S18
D12
WaW 12/08/14 after affair exposed , suspected for several months
W returned home for 2 weeks to see if can handle family life
After the 2 weeks she has left .