Faced some serious internal communication/organizational issues with this issue. I see how I have the choice of being Ol' Heather and taking other people's craapppp OR leading and managing as I was hired to do.
I see myself at a fork in the road. Yesterday, at work, I could see how easily I could CHOOSE to remain the victim and take on other people's issues/problems and then be the fall guy.
THAT AIN'T HAPPENIN.
We have some management issues here that aren't of my making. I plan on putting myself in a good position here. It will happen.
Haven't spoken to my dad yet. In some ways, this was a huge gift to me. I'm facing some things with my dad that I've needed to face. For some reason, I have this pattern in my life where the people I love are somehow given permission, by me, to make these life-altering mistakes...but, when I make a mistake or do something against my value system...I beat myself up and set myself on fire at the stake like Joan of Arc.
I feel the pain of other people's mistakes. I make these mistakes, lies, issues...mine. I'm human. And, that's ok. I've done the best I could.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
