Gogofo - no longer piecing 2nd BD

[gogofo]

Updating my situation. We talked about the lists and she just seems like she wants us to get back together but does not know how to do it.

We discussed some particular issues and talked about how some have not been addressed, others needed to be looked at again because we are in a very different place in our lives with work and money etc.

I talked about how I support her and her future and the possibility of moving away from our current town so she can pursue her dreams.

We had a nice evening the day before and on Halloween. Spent time with the kids and together and it was enjoyable. I spent the night on Halloween.

She left early the next morning to pick up family from the airport and left me a honey do list. I was happy about it because I told her that was something I really enjoyed.

We were going to go on a private date that night but she asked if we could go with her parents and relatives as a big group and we had a nice dinner together. We went back to her place and cuddled in bed and fell asleep together.

Sunday I worked on my house and she went to work. She was running behind and so I prepared dinner at her house and let her play with the kids while I cleaned up the kitchen. She does not really get any fun time with the kids, so it was my goal to give her the time to do her work and the time to play with the kids.

Monday she had a late meeting so I cooked dinner at her house and did not plan to stay the night, but she fell sick after dinner and our youngest was having a bad evening. I stayed the night and got up off and on all night with the kids so she could try and get some rest and feel better.

Last night I went to my house and worked on it while she taught late.

During our talk last week I mentioned that there was a 7 week fondness exercise that we could try that was supposed to bring us closer together. She agreed she would try it so we started on Monday.

Monday we shared our thoughts about each other as per the question we were supposed to think about. It went well, no big issue.

Last night I sent a text about remembering a special/romantic time we shared. She sent a message back saying that she can't do this. When she was remembering times like that they were all created by her and she was angry now thinking how I had not contributed. Not really what the exercises were supposed to do, but I can see where she is coming from and why that would make her mad.

She came over this morning and to get the boys so I could go to work. She seemed alright, didn't talk about anything much as I had to leave right when she got there.

We are supposed to have an evening together with her relatives tonight and then on Friday we are supposed take them out of town and then back to the airport on Saturday.

I tried to remain calm last night and not be so scared of the anger she was feeling. Trying to disconnect from her feelings and keep myself happy. I was not perfect at it, but better than I have been in the past.

I think she wants to move fairly fast or have a plan about us coming together and it seems like the fondness exercises were a tunnel without any cheese. Maybe she is feeling pressured by it, I don't know.

When discussing this coming week she asked "so are you moving in again" and I said that it was up to her. I said when we get the house to a point that is ready to sell we can reevaluate where we are and if we are ready for it.