Going Down Hill

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Wife must be starting to feel guilty and depressed or something. Last week she has quit dressing up to the nines to go out to get grocery's, working out, and she says she hasn't been sleeping. Which she has been doing the last 2 months or so. She texted me about how she was feeling guilty this morning as per above. Then tonight before bed she asked "how are you doing" I said "good...why?". W "i feel so cold right now". Me" Why do you feel so cold?" W "I guess with all the stuff we are going to go through we cant expect to be best buddies". Me calmly "yep". Then there was approx. 1 min of silence. She was watching "The Batchelor Canada". which she know's I don't like, so I said. "I don't really feel like watching the batchelor right now" and left to go do my own thing.

I am feeling pretty detached right now. I don't really have much feelings for her. I know my feelings will come and go but it feels pretty good not to think of her 90% of the day. Now it is only 50% LOL.