Card, I noticed we think a lot alike. Great minds, right?
Self improvement is THE place to start, I realize that, and a way of life from now on.
I need to listen and empathize before reacting. This means I need to really slow down. Really slow down. Breathe. Empathize. Act. Not react. Reaction is a HUGE weakness of mine and one I no longer wish to claim. I wish it were that easy though. Wouldn't that be great? I don't want to be reactive anymore and **voila** I'm no longer reactive. That'd be awesome.
As far as things I'm doing... I'm taking some cooking classes, I take yoga though not as often as I'd like these last two weeks, I'm considering taking karate (with H not being around I'd love to be more confident about defending myself should it come to that), I'm thinking about starting a once a month ladies night at my house "wine Wednesdays". Music of any kind reminds me of H so while I love it, I limit my exposure to it because I can't just listen to it, I analyze it like he would or wonder how he would. I'm hoping music isn't ruined for me for good.
Other than that? I got nothin'.
I'm working hard at getting a better, full time job so I can't be vacationing much. I do want to do more one on one things with D. We do so much with a large group of friends when we do stuff with D. I'd like to hit the science museum without 8 other parents and 5 other kids, you know?
Maybe that's me pulling away a bit. I need that right now.
