Hey SS! I feel ya. I think it's sad, but divorce seems so common these days a lot of people just shrug and are like 'yeah, my brother got divorced and he had a tough time. Just gotta take care of the kids and keep going and you'll be fine." It's shocking. So I'm glad you're not one of those people.
As for finding yourself, I'd like to know you. How about this: can you tell us 3-5 things you've done (one time or life long) that showcase who you feel you really are? I want a highlight reel! Maybe that will help you get back in touch with your best self, and may even help spur some GAL stuff that's suited for who you want to grow into.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15