Caliguy, I needed that. I focused on those words all last week. I struggled big time. It's hard to put the lid on the hurt, especially when H is reaching out. I don't want to sweep stuff under the rug, I'm afraid we'll get back together again with him thinking we've swept it under that rug and don't have to revisit it again and then it will just smolder inside me.
I don't want to be the LBS who rehashes everything constantly. I just want to clear things up and move on.
I talked with my DB coach, worked out a plan, and we've got another MC appt scheduled, so that's good.
One day at a time.
I can not recall where I read it .. may have been DR ... I only recall having to put a lid on it because I had this hilarious imace of that big guy holding a large happer .. softly enticing the mouse to come closer .. closer .. closer .. then WHAMM letting em have it.
I think your H .. well and WAS who did the MLC dance has to deal with a flood of emotions once the hit that stage .. the guilt of what they did, seems during MLC the memory is so bad they can nto recall where they parked .. but I know they will recall all the horrible things they did .. the damage left afterwards ... that in itself will be alot to get through without us LBS's throwing our own gasoline on the fire.
Thought behind this .... look how strong you have been to this point, look at the strength you never knew you had ... its ok to hurt .. just let it out a little at a time .. you've got this.
