Ok I have to share something else that happened. As I've mentioned I've been feeling very weary lately. Supposedly my H is working on the papers to finalize the D but I haven't pushed it or asked. Just been going about my business- though lately I have been wondering if is joule just say " when are we going to get this over with?"
So I subscribe to a daily bible verse and commentary email from Seven Seas ministries. This was in my inbox today:

Matthew 19:6 (NKJV) "So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate."

Marriage is an incredible gift from God. Sadly, it has become devalued in today's society.

As followers of Christ, we don't have to fall into the traps of the enemy, destroying what God has joined together.

Making a marriage last takes hard work on both sides. But it can be done!

Are you in a troubled marriage? Have you cheated on your spouse? Have you mistreated them?

Have you given up hope because your spouse mistreated you?

Regardless of what you've been through, this doesn't have to be the end of your relationship. There is hope and there is help for you. You can make it work and have victory in your situation.

Start by forgiving each other. Make a decision to do whatever it takes to work things out and don't quit. Don't give up.

And instead of dwelling on what the other person did wrong to you, stop and ask God what He wants you to change in yourself. If both people in a troubled relationship would do this, and then take it seriously enough to take action to fix the problems, not a single relationship would end up broken.

We know it's not easy, so don't think we're saying that it is. But we've seen God work some miracles in cases where both people were willing to admit that they had faults and then work through the problems in front of them.

So don't give up hope. Trust God. Let Him lead you. If we could all just let God lead us, how much better would our lives be?

It's never too late to start.


Ok God- I'm listening. I will sit back and wait. Purchasing some dig deep patience shovels for the Holidays!


Me 41 H 40
M 20 T 23
S 19,16, 8 D 13
BD1 dec 2012 not sure going to work
BD2 sep 2013 seeking a D
Filed oct 2013, D Feb 2015
Life is about daring greatly, about being in the arena- Brene Brown