Oh honey..so sorry to read that you're feeling low.
Let me tell you. For the longest time, I felt a bright neon-pink "L" letter was blaring out from my forehead announcing what a loser I was. Yeah, my ego and pride took a real beating after Ms. Wonka left. It made me feel less than a person and it took a looong time to recover that self-confidence back. It is a process that will require time and patience. You are in the early stages and try not to rush this process. Try to be real gentle with yourself. At least, you owe yourself this, sweetie.
If I would were to do things differently knowing what I know now with a perspective of time, I would have booked myself to more back massage sessions!!!! Seriously. I really didn't take care of myself too well in the early stages as I was stuck in a PTSD-filled inferno that lasted about 2 or so months. That included the LBS diet! I lost about 2 sizes and people NOTICED. Talk about shell-shocked!
Sweetie, go and be around other people. Especially close friends or family members that you can draw love from. They're a real balm to the tattered soul.
