It doesn't feel like a fairytale anymore...

[fthnluv]

Hi everyone! Sorry to be MIA, it was a long weekend.

I am still working on keeping my mind off H and the OW, it was particularly hard this weekend when my kids were with my in-laws and H and OW were on a trip nearby. Thankfully, that is now in the past and I have vowed not to look at that app where I found there travel plans in the future. Even though I did it innocently at the time, to see his flight status for the trip I did know about, the information only hurt me and my heart. I have also vowed not to look at OW's FB profile because it is possible I will see a new pic of them or that she has changed her status from "in a relationship" to "engaged". I have no idea if that's the case and I don't want to know until/if I have to.

Brought my Grandmother to stay with me for the next week or so and that has been a nice distraction. She is a smart, and funny, cookie!

At some point this week I need to sit down and run the actual numbers for his "offer" against what I think I could get, at a minimum, from my state. I guess I have been putting that off because I don't want to take any steps forward towards the D but I need to be prepared if/when he brings it up again too.

I have a meeting tonight but I'm going to try to come in and catch up on everyone's posts in the next day or 2. Hope you all have amazing things to report!