still holding on - 5

[u-turn]

Part of me thinks that - this is actually good, she is actually feeling something, this is actually movement. She may see that this cannot work this way as a permanent way of life. She hasn't shown much emotion through all of this.

I have a feeling that she does not really want a divorce but thinks that there is no other solution to this mess. I could be wrong about this though.

I know ultimately I don't want to get a divorce, I am true to my vows, and I still believe that we can move forward.

I've said that I do not want to divorce, and I think she understood that, but that's something that I often am not sure of (whether or not I was clear enough when I say something).

I would like to bring up the possibility of MC with her first - though I know that would be a waste of time if she is not ready.