H calls tonight- cancels on me coming over(he's tired and going to bed- is sorry about it though- that's new!), but we have great convo w. more steps! Wow, fun life ahead of me, lol! Ok, he asks if I'm coming to his show tomorrow, I play it off like I'm not sure, maybe!... Then he says he'll put me on the guest list, in case. So, then he says if I come to show, I should come over after the show, hang out and get keys. He hasn't invited me over after a show since the S! I said I'd see, I'll play it by ear

Ok- you guys are gonna think this is wild, but honestly, I think it's all good...fun
So, he starts telling me about new gig him and drummer in band are doing- they're recording music for strippers and selling it to them- H says this is good market, strippers will pay $300 for songs, and many usually bring their own music to clubs. So, he wanted me to know that after I move in, him and drummer friend are gonna have strippers over dancing and stuff, for the music gig. I was super cool and say "wow, FUN! sounds like a nice way to make some cash-heehe and you know me,man- I'd dig that- I'm into dance, would love to pick up some moves.. " At first, H says he doesn't care if I approve- but I act more cool and I mention that "I have lots going on- my own stuff to do, but yeh some of the time, I'd love to hang out" Then, he says, "well yeh- you can prob fit in studio and watch and stuff- that's cool." I talk more about how it's a cool idea and then he even says "don't worry, I'll behave!" kind of embarassed sounding (H is showing his commitment to me- WOW- HUGE STEP)

Remember when H brought this up like a month ago and he acted different, like interlaced it w. OW talk- now that's fading away!

Ok, I majorly aced this one and gained bigtime. And actually, I really think it would be pretty wild! I'm the type to make friends with anyone who comes over and maybe even sell a custom artwork of mine or something to people that come over, right! I'm not threatened, I only stand to have fun! So, I didn't have to pull too much of a 180 other than supporting him in his ideas- heehe.. And show, the fun, cool me. I think H may have pigeonholed the "old me" as acting not as cool about this, so I'm blowing that away. I am still on cloud nine from H saying he would behave! I giggled after that and then talked about his gear, which he was happily bragging about then for several min.


Last edited by rj2; 03/31/04 03:42 AM.
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