moving with confidence to success!

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Thanks everyone- Ok- I am so totally SPUN right now


H calls tonight... lft VM- calls back later. Good convo. Totally moving in close and acting like he's leaving at the same time!!! God, ok- I have to sort this out and need advice fast- R talk coming my way- possibly tomorrow or soon

So, he said he wished he caught me when he first called b/c he was on his way to music store to get gear for his audition and he thought I might want to come!(big, special thing for him to share w. me) So, he borrowed money from family to get this gear, but "wanted to check with WIFE first to see if WE could swing this purchase and pay OUR bills next month" He even said he told the store clerk he had to check with his WIFE first!!! Ok, this is how we used to act pre-S, like we'd check with each other on large purchases. I tell him of course, to go for it totally man(it's something he really badly wants and will help him ace audition) I tell him about stuff I'm selling and he's pleased. He tells me everything he's doing tonight and tomorrow, from what he's spending money on to what he's doing before I come over tomorrow. Anyone think I shouldn't be available tomorrow night? Like he knows I'm so available this week?

Then he says I can move stuff over starting Thursday AND he's gonna call me tomorrow night to come over and show me his new gear, he's so excited. He tells me all about how he's getting room ready for me, how he loves the cat, etc... Then I mention selling a small TV and he gets weird, tells me to hang onto it, b/c if he moves to LA on his OWN next month, I will need the tv for myself here, I should wait and not sell it. Then he says "we've really got to figure out what we're doing, we have stuff to talk about" He wants to have a huge R talk, and he's tired of being in limbo, don't I feel that way? "We have stuff to talk about" In stern? tone of voice, as if he's unsure still, and may want to leave on his own?? I think my tone of voice sounded a little more distant after that, because he kept going on- don't I want to talk? I was like, ah, sure. Then, changed the subject. Jekyll and Hyde?? Feeling weirded by the R talk he's insisting on. He wants to make big decisions now. Like he wants to get on with his new path in life, he's tired of waiting for his career to come through... Maybe it's just his panic showing up- my tv comment set it off I was acting like we were together? Any opinions? Prepare myself for any comments coming my way.... The number of times he said "we" and then "wife" 2 times- totally unprecedented!

A big part of why I feel so under the gun, is because the move to LA thing is coming up fast- and H's bomb comments about leaving without me? are a total spin.... amidst all the "we" talk- help.