The only thing I keep returning to is that he was the only man in my life that I ever considered marrying. That says something.
I am picky---there haven't even been many men I've wanted to date, not since I was in my 20's and fairly naive.
So that's the round pen I'm riding around in circles today.
Oh believe me, I can relate to that.
On many many levels my xh and I were incredibly well suited. The differences (and this sounds arrogant) is that I was interested in sorting out my issues, and my xh wasn't. And still isn't.
Would I have stayed around? Probably, but in my case he took to the hills and has remained there. In some ways he did me a favour as I haven't had to face the decision of calling time.
But I still haven't really met anyone that I liked as much as the pre MLC husband, or who I got on with as well and laughed as much with. I was replaced very quickly with one person after another, which doesn't make anyone feel like someone special. But I like me, and fortunately I like living alone!
