I don't get on here as much as I used to anymore, mostly because H is home so I don't really have the privacy, but also because I am trying to limit time on the computer. I'm glad I popped on today and checked on some threads, particularly Mozza's thread because 25years had posted yet another great response!
I was going a little crazy (ok still am a bit) because I feel like how long can I do this? I see progress yet tend to focus on the negatives. I keep telling myself to be patient, really he has only been home for a month and is dealing with severe pain from his back injuy.
Saturday I had made tentative plans to meet my friend and her family out at a local bar and grill, we were discussing ordering pizza in when she called. I told her I may meet her even just for a drink to text me when she was on her way.
In the meantime he had given the girls some $$ to go shopping and we were discussing the possibility of buying and running a concession trailer and what things we could sell (after we had watched some food shows on tv). promising future talk right! During our conversation he asked if I was going out and I said I was thinking about it and asked if he wanted to come. He didn't want to go as late as my friends were going so said let's go now, which we did. Went to dinner, had a couple of beers, conversation and laughs. My friend owns the place so we talked to her for a bit and overall had a really nice night.
Yesterday we had some nice chilly weather so I decided I was going to cook. He was doing yard work. Typical normal family activities.
So why can't I focus on the positives and stop worrying on the fact that we have very little physical contact at all, to the point where I feel like he avoids it. I'm ok with him sleeping in the other room but I saw today that he has put some of his clothes in the closet in the other room. Still keeps his phone very protected....sigh.
OK done with that...time to get back to focusing on me. Keep going in the direction I'm going but still need to find more GAL activities!
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since
