Thanks rottzilla! Make me snap back to reality, instead of blaming myself.... Got to be a good part of what's going on... Seeing underneath things is so key.. I know, I HAVE been looking super hot around H at all times(especially towards moving this from "friends" to "lovers"). Whole new wardrobe of tight, sexy clothes, black leather, lingerie- black satin thongs- makeup, flowing hair, the whole bit..... Feel like I don't look too different from when we met 10 yrs ago(at age 20!) except for my hair being 3"shorter-- and if anything am dressing sexier now. The old me was more "cute" than sexy. Not like that was bad, but now I'm both, right!!! So, yeah, the confident me knows he is majorly noticing and I have gotten even small comments from him that indicate this.. "you're wearing my fave skirt", "that chic in mag looks like you"(one he has pinned up on his tattoo wall), and he grabs my butt off and on. Of course, not to mention we've ML a few times recently and I've spiced that up..... So, I have to keep seeing underneath what he is saying. Maybe all the criticisms can be summed up with my earlier suspicion that he's coming up with lame junk b/c it's so obvious I'm AMAZING,(and especially the new me) that he has nothing to stand on! Like a last attempt to feel in control of himself? Soon will just breakdown and not resist? H does have huge control/freedom issues... Any thoughts from the guys on the critical junk?
Master the self-fulfilling prophecy.. Act 'as if' it's going to happen and make it be!!
