There are a lot of SAHDs in my community and I've gotten to know two of them quite well. One of them is "my type," and the opposite in most ways from my H. And it scares me because although I like his wife, I can absolutely see that that friendship could be a slippery slope. In fact, every so often we just start avoiding each other. Just to keep away from the edge of the slope. But we also rely on one another to help with the kids. He's good friends with one of my SAHM friends and their conversations get way more intimate than his and mine. It's just too tricky. So there's no way I can do much of even platonic dating. You just never know where the ground is under your feet.
I think Sandi posted something from an LBS, that she never could flirt with an OM because it would be so hard to reconcile with her H after everything that happened, because things got so bad between her and her H that anyone else would seem that much better by comparison. I'm feeling like that now too.
I'm not going to date. It would be awful for my kids. But I hope H and I either quit or reconcile soon, because I want to be warmly loved and appreciated, and to be with someone I can admire and trust in return. I'm ok... But also, I want to be held. I've been really strong for quite a while, and a lot has happened to me.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
