Thanks for the reassurance. It's so hard taking a step back on some off these areas. I'm a "fixer," and it seemed as if we had found the problem in our discussions and it stinks seeing that it seems to have went backwards. I need to realize that I caught her by surprise when I said I knew what was going on and I think it took a few days for her to put her guard back up.
So, the birthday party went okay. I tried to help out as much as I could. It was weird, because it almost felt at times like everything was back to normal. Although we didn't talk too much, it was nice to both be focusing on the kids. Our kids had a blast which was good, they've been through so much. I was a wreck afterwards as my kids said good bye and they're going to miss me.
Next step, counselling again this week. Our big issue right now is the kids. There's a bunch of stuff I found out that definitely shows she's not thinking of the kids and how they feel emotionally. I guess she did walk out on all of us, so that shouldn't be a surprise. I'm struggling with how to strike a balance with their stability in this situation now that I don't trust my wife myself. They need to see her, but she feels entitled to an even 50/50 split. Like I said, my problem is it seems like she's only looking out for herself right now. I've been their stability since she walked out and I'm very concerned for the kids as they are too young to really let us know what they feel is best for them.
M:36 W:37 T: 15 M:11 S6 D5 BD: 8/10/14 IDLY: 8/12/14 S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids) D Mentioned: 10/15/14 Confronted about OM: 10/15/14 EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13 She filed: 8/15 (not final)
