I didn't make things worse. That's the important thing. Today it's bugging me that he didn't apologize for being all weird.
Instead he says "Forget last night"... it was liquor... Just "forget" as if it happened all on its own.
Irritating.
I am so tired of this dance some days, days when I feel that even though he's making some progress, he's never going to be what I need.
I have grown so much and he is such a mess, still going down in his own flames.
It's still ALL ABOUT HIM.
I can't remember the last time he asked me if I needed anything, if I was okay, or did anything sweet for me. This is now a good several years and tonight I'm feeling lonely and fed up.
The last time I came right out and told him I was struggling, that I was breaking down physically, and he knew I had started all kinds of medications, his "solution" was for me to just LEAVE.
Gee...thanks. That's swell.
I am tired of doing all the work just to have him act ridiculous and childish, and then not even take responsibility for his actions.
Meh.
Me 54 Him 63 M 23 T 29 0 Kids Funny Farm of Rescues 12/12 OW-- 5/13 ILYBINILWY: A denied 9/13 Proof OW: ENDED 2/14 Got D papers on my BD I kicked him out for my sanity 9/14 He wants to "talk"?
