I've dropped the rope....

[Bunches]

Hey Toots, I'm sure its tough to have gone so long and feel like its not just slipping further out of hand. But in my opnion, if you reach out your are only confirming to him that you are thinking about him and securing your plan B status. My assumption here is that you want to reach out because you miss him and are hoping for a reaction. Just seems like the wrong reason. It doesn't seem very "as if" either. Especially with him still being in the A...its not time. You could be fulfilling an emotional need when reaching out during his A that makes him feel better about what he is doing. Just stick with you and your life and let it be.

Just my thoughts...