hey everyone thank you SO much for your encouraging responses....
Christine, you're right about how nothing has happened yet, I shouldn't worry about things that "could be" even if H talks of them, could be more his 'talk'. This is an issue of his that has come up recently- it's like he's grasping at the last possible straws to prove being M is undesirable. He has nothing against me as a person anymore, and loves me- but has his "freedom" issues, and the fear of me having expectations of him or something. I don't know what's going to happen with his comments, but I do know what I can do to put my best face forward and influence the future positively for me. I must continue to know and believe that I am a very attractive, sexy person and love to have fun/ create thrills and excitement.. If H wasn't so BLIND he would've seen that by now- but I guess I have to try extra hard and monitor based on his mood. Sometimes he completely ignores it, like he's totally turned off to me- He seemed to tell me last night that what made him more excited was that I wasn't his "wife"-- and that's what he would like about other women. Like his mindset has to be different about it, but he was vague about how that could happen for sure, and acted like it's only b/c we're "not together" he felt that way. Whatever. Maybe that's the "discontent" that is still sparking off it's irritations toward me. Alien, likely.... Less talking, more doing- duck tape H's mouth shut!
Master the self-fulfilling prophecy.. Act 'as if' it's going to happen and make it be!!
