I'm not surprised at all to hear the morgue has a gift shop. If it's not strange, it's not LA.
Maybell, I just read through the recents on your thread and I'm inspired by your outlook and strength. I can hear vulnerability in your posts but I also hear strength and grace underneath the vulnerability. I am building up to that but man it feels s-l-o-w.
And I HATE that I put value on what he thinks of me. I feel unloveable, unwanted and unvaluable and I've let him make me feel that way. I don't want that. I didn't used to be this way. I thought I knew my inherent value outside of all extraneous things but apparently I was very wrong. I want to know that value again. To know I'm love able and wanted even though he doesn't. I didn't realize I was so insecure and reliant on what he thought if me and I despise that about myself right now. Despise it.
Elsa, I thought it would get easier as time went by, too, but it has not. I thought I'd feel stronger by now but I don't. I thought I'd be solid on my path, making real progress... But I'm not. I'm ready for all that to happen whoever it's ready. Ha!
I want to do something fun with D tomorrow I'm just not coming up with any ideas. I wish I could just lounge around and sleep all day but I can't... So we may as well do something fun and awesome. But what?
