My friend, Im so sorry you are feeling sad. I know it's so hard to deal with all these changes in your life.
I remember milestones in my son's life when xh wasnt there or he was and wasnt sitting with me. Not the life I thought I was going to have. Not what son hoped for either.
So, I allowed myself to feel the feelings and acknowledged them. Then I let them go. They still come up from time to time. No way around it, I'm afraid.
I know this isnt the life you thought you were going to have either. It isnt going to always look and feel like it does now.
I know you, my friend. You will get through this and regroup.
Hug on your son as much as you can. Have a good cry. Do what you have to do to get through the weekend.
We have to let go of the life we thought we were going to have and make the life we are getting a really great one.
Different doesnt mean bad...it just means different. .
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