When will this ever get easier? Every time I think I've got this and I'm doing okay something else happens and it just hurts so much.

The facts are
1 H is still with the OW
2 H has been to a L to start the legal separation process (splitting the finances)
3 H said ultimately he wants a divorce
4 He has shown no interest in me, my life or my well-being.

So really I know deep down he has totally, 100% moved on....

And I am trying so hard to detach - no snooping, GAL, trying to maintain a PMA.

S18 told me today his Dad asked if he would like to meet his 'friend'. He said no. H said that was okay. This stings.

I also heard he has taken OW to an annual sporting event which is traditionally an all guys thing. And they appeared to be so happy. He seems to be so much in love. That stings too.

When will this stop? Will there ever really come a time when I couldn't care less about what he does?

Me - 44 Husband - 47
D20, S18
BD - Aug 2013
Moved out - Jan 2014
OW discovered Jan 2014