Dave36, not sure i expressed myself correctly there. By permission i meant "the marriage is over, time to move on", not keep the marriage and have an affair...although that may be what happens as we are not currently headed for a Divorce. Our friendship is intact and without my anger our relationship is doing pretty well, its all a bit weird to me. The past months i had been so focussed upon getting away from her, that now i'm standing confused wondering what to do.
