still holding on - 4

[u-turn]

Thanks Peter - I'm not sure if explaining my changes will hold much weight - more so just remind her of my faults.

Other 180s I'm trying:

I need to dump my - if we are not working at it, we are not working at it attitude. Though I want a magic solution, I have to realize that just because we are not actively moving forward, at least by not adding pressure, we are not moving backwards - this is still hard for me (I think that I may have added pressure throughout our marriage to get results).

Looking at the calendar again and knowing that yet another month has gone by since everything blew up usually makes me pushy for a solution or direction. (this cycle needs to stop -and this is approaching a year).

I know this is nothing new here - I've been told to be patient, but may need to write it to do it.
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BTW - I am truly astounded by the amount of care there is here. I come here every day, usually just to read other's advice and pick up some wisdom or motivation from them. I am grateful for those that selflessly give their time and offer advice and motivating words to each other every day. THANK YOU

(I try to remember the things that I'm thankful for and let people know about it in November)