Going Down Hill

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This is getting harder by the day. W was sad and said she has not friends as she thinks they are on my side. Small town 1000 people. People have noticed that I am skinner and seem sad. One of her friends mentioned that I did not look good and said she felt sorry for me. She did not tell her friend but told me. Why is she sorry for you I am the one you hurt.

So going back to last night. She was sad and said she doesn't like going out b/c she feels people are talking about her. I asked if she wanted to talk about it and she said she did not. 2 older kids were in bed so I suggested W take D2 to play. B/c that always made me feel better. After D2 went to bed I could still tell she was hurting. I sure she feels lonely, sad, confused. I now how that feels and I don't wish that on anyone. All I want to do is comfort her but she does not want me to do it. So it brings me down more to think that someone I love is hurting and there is nothing I can do about it