Is it too late?

[123Gwen]

LoisB you are right - "I have been given gold."

Thank you all for the wisdom and encouragement. CaliGuy is spot on with MLCville being like the Walking Dead. You are looking for your H but he is a zombie and you can only save yourself.

It's just a lot to take in when the rest of the world is just moving along. I am grateful for that but I also realize well meaning friends and family just want you to get over it. They think H is the fool and this all went down over the summer so let's not dwell in the past. I am fairly good about staying positive but it is if he has become Voldemort.

Halloween is a huge deal for us. We dress up the house and go all out. The last two years we didn't do anything because H was "not in the mood" - I know now the transformation had begun. Anyway this year we got everything out and the girls and I had a blast. College girl came home because she just wanted to be here and relax. We had about 200 trick or treaters. The kids were saying we had the best house in the neighborhood.

I did drink too much last night after we ran out of candy. The past got to me and I learned that for awhile at least I need to stay away from alcohol on holidays. I am not a drinker but when I start on holidays I want to numb those feelings because it is all so raw.

So Halloween is a practice run for Thanksgiving and Christmas. Note to self - no drinking. D's will be with me as H only texts. H Voldemort zombie is literally in the desert with OW. I doubt he will insist on seeing his children and the fact is they really don't want to see him. I have no expectations so I am making fun plans to go see family. The girls are excited but I also told them we can change things if we need to adjust. Maybe I do have expectations or at least unrealistic wishes? LRT is really, really tough. Be prepared but GAL. So much irony in MLCville and one must remember it is a sister city to Crazyville and Irrationaland.

Thanks Mighty, Wonka,, Lois, Forever, Cat04, GoatGal and Nitty. It is so lonely sometimes even in a room full of people. DBusting is not for sissies!