BD and 6 months later PA confirmed (2)

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Got a call early today from BIL wanting to spend some time hanging out. Didn't have S for the weekend as its W visitation weekend and previous plans fell through so I thought why not. Tonight he tells me he is sorry to have kept quiet for so long but respected me enough that he felt I needed the truth.

W's PA started months before she left me. She was spending days with OM while I was at work. Also, after the first 6 months following BD, I was told the OM had done something unforgivable and would never be spoken to again. At which point W assured she would not see anyone else as long as we were still M. I'm now told she has gotten back with same OM but between that time there was OM2 who was also married to someone else that went on for a couple months. It seems W has not been alone or without someone for the last 2 years now.

I'm not devistated this time. I'm just angry. I don't intend to confront, I don't see the point. W has done nothing but express her wants to D but with cooperation and agreement that we will do things together in S best interest. Going to meet with L again this week. Its time to file. I'm getting nothing but lies all the time at this point. W has no regret or interest in even trying and I feel like a dumb animal tricked into cooperation by empty lies and misleading. W asked me to agree that we would not see other people while still M about 5 months ago and now I find out it was all a show to convince me that she was giving it a chance she never even considered.

I really wish I had listened to the Starsky advice much earlier on. Feel really dumb now.