Mozza (2)

[Mozza]

OK, I'll ignore it. Thanks for the advice. I agree that it might not be that fun and, in fact, if she's too drunk it might be a minor disaster. It might be the wall of reality that she needs to hit.

This is taking me to a place of detachment after all. This and the frantic call from last night about the kids. This is not the woman I fell in love with, married and chose to have kids with. It's very sad that this woman is gone, for good or not, but I can't be in love with a woman who spits on my ideal of a family, who rejects our view of sex and love, and who doesn't love me.

Perhaps it's a self-destructive path. Perhaps she'll wake up from it and go back to her old values. At what age does it become pathetic and unfulfilling to get drunk across town dressed in an S&M costume? She might have 10 years left of this. Then again, she told me I kept her in a straightjacket and she wanted to find her true self. If that's true, then I need to move on because I can't be with her true self.

I shouldn't be carried away in her adventure. I need to maintain and reinforce my sense of self. I'm happy to have the kids for Halloween and look forward to their pleasure. I even have a costume this year.

It's just so hard to accept because just a few weeks ago...