Spinning my wheels, but laughing all the way

[labug]

Thank you, Rick and JS.

I am slowly building my confidence, but it is not to the point where it needs to be. Perhaps it has never been as strong as it should, but in certain aspects of my life I feel almost cocky. I just need to level my own playing field. I am working on that. Today, I just reached a personal goal. I have dropped 40 pounds and added a bit of muscle, in the last year. I physically feel better than I have in over 15 years. I feel strong, and I feel fast. That is helping me a lot. Plus, my clothes fit a whole lot better.....well, my "new clothes" fit better...haha

La, it is good to hear from you. I am MUCH more at peace. My anger hasn't been an issue at all. My original post here was misleading. It really does boil down to HURT. I am still hurting, but mostly when I am reminded about the past, or how the whole separation/moving on process happened. I definitely have some abandonment feelings. This is why I choose to, "keep my hand out of the fire", like JS described. If I keep W out of my thoughts and daily life, the hurt seems to be less.

In regards to being Artistic, YES! I love art. Actually, if asked, I bet the majority of my friends would list "artistic" in their top 3 words describing me. At one point in time, my artwork was part of my daily work life. It is interesting what we perceive, from a few paragraphs or a little insight. We don't really get the whole picture. Here are a couple more things, that you perhaps would never guess about me.
1) I received a scholarship to play College football.
2) I own a glue gun and a box of craft supplies, that my daughter and I use on a regular basis.
3) I have a list of helpful hairstyle hints for little girls, saved on my pinterest. I can even French braid!
4) I don't have a single hair on my head, but I often have a scruffy face
5) In high school, I was voted "class clown" 3 out of the 4 years I attended, only being beat out by my girlfriend during my sophomore year
6) I used a chainsaw yesterday, to repair a log cabin
7) I drive a school bus in the winter, not because I need the money, but because I love kids and I want to make a difference in their lives.
8) I make a wicked...and I mean WICKED Spaghetti sauce from scratch.
9) Very few people believe it, when I tell them my age. I'm not sure if I look young, or if I still act like a child...either way, I take it as a compliment
10) I am a better man today, than I have ever been in my life!

Great post!