Sounds like there is a huge inner struggle going on there for your W - and really interesting comments about true love and perfect man.

One one level your W seems to know that she will feel huge regret about the possible loss of your R - and knows that you will find happiness with some other great person if this happens - and that her own life might pale in comparison.

On another level, she's still drawn to OM - even though he's unavailable now. It certainly sounds as though you should hang on in there.

But do try to really GAL for your own sake/sanity - what's going on for you must be really tough to live with...

Best of luck to you though...

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus