Maybell XVIII

[Mozza]

I don't trust that he has enough strength of will to come back.

Two days ago, in my "day of anger", I was saying that I deserve to be loved. That I better be with someone that loves me back as much as I love her. That I shouldn't be worried all the time that the other person's commitment is depending on my constant stress and compensation for them. It's a sad thing to realize, but my W shouldn't come back if she doesn't love me deeply and want this to work as much as I do. I'm still willing to take her back under any circumstances, but I can feel that my emotions are catching up with my reason. Of course, I also have my share of changes to implement so that I'm worthy of her return.

I feel like it's the idea of marriage I'm standing for rather than the actual guy I married. Does anyone else feel this way?

I wouldn't put the two in opposition because I feel that I stand for both. It might also be that marriage is one of our best arguments to stay together and it just stings to see it thrown away like it doesn't count.