Those are BIG issues and yet you seem to justify alot of your behavior and throw the blame back on your W rather than taking responsibility of your own actions and realizing that these are the consequences to those actions.
Then I gave you the wrong impression. I see the main reasons for my separation within the R. I beat myself up plenty for my behavior (perhaps not enough here) and agree that things needed to change for a healthy relationship, even when people around me disagree that it was that bad or that it was all my fault. I started counseling a couple of days after the separation talks started. These sessions are all about me and the roots of my behavior (he's Freudian...). I've ordered DR, I read The 5LL and I've NMMNG waiting. Because of this sense that I pushed her away, I'm accepting of her behavior towards me and with other people. I wish that our problems could have been fixed within the M, but to an extent, I made it possible (appealing?) for her to leave me when the stars aligned.
I also want to get a full picture of how I came to this point and it means exploring my W's side of things. This is why I discuss mental health, immaturity, patterns, etc. It doesn't mean that I forget about my responsibility when I do so.
M39 D6 D3 (at S) S 2014-09 D 2016-09
"You can't start a fire sitting around, crying over a broken heart" - Bruce Springsteen.
