Alright guys, thanks. We have a meeting in two weeks. I will cool it with her until then and continue to be genuine. Will not address the OP (if there is even one...AHHHH). Interestingly I was going to go to a Divorcecare meeting last night and she got upset stating that I should go with her and the kids to dinner and wait until it happens to attend the meetings
I replied "if" to which she stated..."you are the one that wants to attend a meeting for something that hasn't happened"....we laughed. Slept in the same bed last night, she touched me with her foot, I brought her coffee in the morning and she smiled. it was nice. I left without touching her when I said good-by.
What is the hardest right now for me is that I can see her moving out and getting on with my life...dating again...finding someone else...occupying myself with things that fullfill me....being OK with it eventually. I fully want her, love her and need her...I believe that we are right together and enjoyher company and personallity. I think she is smoking hot even though she thinks she isn't ("I'm fat")...She is not by the way. I love her eyes and smile when she remembers how happy we were...she looks at me the way that she used to even though she has forgot or is shutting it out right now. I simply lover her now more than ever...it is not fear-it was a eyeopener.
So I am in a bad spot - but either way I will be OK....eventually.
W-43 H-41 M-19 T-21 Kids S-15 D-13 S-11 OM/EA/PA suspected 7/4/14 Talk of Seperation 7/5/14 Slept in same bed, held each other nightly until 2/1/15 W moved out 2/1/15 I am moving on
