Feeling beat down

[Bela]

I keep reading Sandi's 37 rules. I work very diligently at following them. I don't know if it is helping or just creating even more space between us. We have had small talk the last 2 days, very short but it's something. He asked his mom what the plans for thanksgiving were so he knew how to plan. I don't knwo what that meant but was just happy he asked. He is also making the house payment for november. Still as confused now as i was last month.