Riding the rollercoaster

[dawgy]

The lack of respect was going on long before I shait kicked the OM . She talked like that to me for the last few months . Like I said before , when I first found out about the affair she was very loving and caring and assurring . As the affair progressed over time she became more distant and colder . At first she said she would straighten things up and for me to relax and everything was going to be fine . Then about three months of suffering by me she comes home one day and says shes leaving . And wants me to tell our sons that the OM is a nice guy and he makes her happy . WTF?????? was she thinking , why would i roll over and do such a thing . Ever since shes asked me to do this and I said I couldnt do that and I would have to tell the truth about the affair shes turned to stone .I really wished I had have exposed way back in March and got it over with . What did i have to lose . Her I am 7 months later still being tortured and trying to keep her dirty little secret