"I was a condescending shrew of a wife. I was resentful and frustrated with lots of unmet needs. I also wasn't very good at meeting his and we had a terrible SSM. I was critical and unempathetic, didn't love him the way he needs to be loved and wasn't very respectful.
Hey, we're sisters! Twins, maybe.
And our childhoods have some similarities. I felt I was so far in a hole I couldn't see daylight and then there was H, kicking dirt down on me.
But as I've said before, I wouldn't take nuthin' for my journey now. My life is almost unrecognizable to 4 years ago. You're getting there, it's just sometimes a crappy trip to the other side.
Open yourself up to the it as much as you can. Say yes to the life you have now, it may not be what you would have chosen but it's the one you have. It can be beautiful and when we decide to be in control of just us and our happiness NO ONE can take that from us.
I think I understand how scary it is to let go...that's dangerous territory for us because something bad, painful even might happen if we don't control for everything.
But look at where you are, and how much you've changed. I've seen the changes. Look at the things that have happened and you're still standing. You're a survivor. You can get to the other side.
Re his comment about NoCal...remember, believe only half. Who knows why he said that but you don't have to do anything based on what he says. That's the beauty of letting go and living your life. I have confidence you'll do what's best for D.
((( )))
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
