It takes incredible inner strength and self-awareness to come through what you have been through as a child, and what you are going through now, and remain poised, and dignified, and able to look inward honestly and purposefully.
In short, I think you are amazing.
To me, the first steps towards change are a) recognizing that change needs to happen; b) recognizing WHAT changes need to happen, specifically; c) noticing when we act in the ways that we want to change, and then d) (slowly) actually making those changes more and more consistently so that the changed behavior becomes habit.
You are at the very least up to point C. To me, that's HUGE. Think about how many people can't even acknowledge they need to change!
Don't be so focused on the fact that you didn't get a touchdown yet. You've covered a lot of yards. Forward movement is SUCCESS.
You recognized that you overreacted with your D, and apologized, and tried to get her involved in the process. Win! You recognized that, even with all this crap going on, you have a lot to be thankful for. Win!
Seriously, you're amazing. Thanks for being here to inspire me.
