Hmm, that entire post, exactly as written, would be an excellent thing to share with H, when the time is right.
I mean, I'm sure he knows all of this, but the way you just wrote it, I think he needs to hear. Including the last sentence as written.
Jefe, I have admitted multiple times over my faults to him. I have apologized. I have done it and more. He's not ready to hear it. He knows he was treated badly. He doesn't need me to remind him. He carries it around with him daily.
I'm not trying to suggest he put it down and forget about it. Not at all. In fact, it's clear he needs to carry it around for a while. I wasn't good to him. At all.
I hope there comes a time where what he's carrying around isn't all he remembers about our marriage. There were GREAT times and the potential for even more GREAT times is there, I believe.
He's not there. The view finder through which he views things has a lot of vaseline on it. A LOT!
