Yes I am grateful to be where I am and I know I probably wouldn't have gotten here and kept my sanity if it wasn't for this board. I have a feeling I would have done a LOT of regrettable things potentially during my moments of anger.
And wounded -
I get what you're saying. I know it's been discussed. It still is difficult though. It's away to say you can forgive and be happy your spouse is back but when put back in that position old feelings do arise. I'm just trying to deal with them as best as I can. Talking here definitely helps. I even feel better just reading your responses.
So I do think H is making an effort. Not as much as august-September but still making an effort. A couple weeks ago he wasn't making much of an effort and was semi distant during the time I found out about the text and we had an argument. I ended up having to work several days in a row so I found when I backed off (I was busy at work, no texting, was short with my responses) he pursued further. We do have a lot of work to do and he knows that as well. I guess a big thing is that he still wants to go to C when pre DB he wouldn't be caught dead in a C office.
