Fresh separation - trying to play by the book

[Mozza]

Pfff... In 2009, my W and I came very, very close to breaking up. A few months after we resolved things, she wrote me an email while I was traveling, saying she had doubts after all. I was completely devasted and the rest of my trip was ruined. I just read the email again and it's The. Exact. Same. [censored]. As. Today.

Extracts:

- I can't lie to myself, I still feel it doesn't gel between us. I don't feel Love, that you're under my skin... That's what I want to feel. I can't live my entire life in a limited emotional range.
- That's what Carrie said to Petrovksy [Sex and the city]: "I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, can't live without each other love" I'm sure it exists.
- I've a call for freedom, to try living doing exactly what I'm looking for, not sacrificing my dreams.
I think I try too much to be someone I'm not.
- My mom, my dad, you.. Some things have been wonderful on the way here, but now I can no longer live this way without listening to my heart.
- In my head, there's a storm that I'm trying to explain to you. Maybe it doesn't make sens, like many things I say, but I can't ignore it.

What personality... disorder is this? Or is it just me who's in the wrong? Is this a sign that I should really just let go and not try to live my life with someone like this? Is she going to meet reality in this separation and come back for good?