Dazed and Confused

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Sprry for the long post but I failed to update the last few days.

Well some more of this crazy ride called DB. The wife calls daily and sometimes its all business and telling me future plans without and sometimes its to test and see if I will get defensive. So far I have done quite well. She mentioned on the phone today how nice it was to be able to not have any arguements or fighting for the past 3 weeks. Other times she texts and calls to discuss her buying a horse. While together she would always share her window shopping adventures with me on whatever new hobby or pastime she came up with (she switched alot) She would comment all the time on how much she liked that I always supported her ideas and would amuse her by listening and going along with them. So now that she wants a horse she is doing the same thing. She is sharing ideas of what to name it the choices of horses she wants etc.

We had a talk validiating some of her feelings from the past where we didnt handle issues when we had horses a few years ago. (things went south with some of her friends as my wife has some issues dealing with people, its something we knew of and dealt with. she knows she has personality disorder but has not been able to get treatment.) On my end I did not react well to her trying to teach me how to ride a horse and also didnt give her enough free time or encouragement for her own riding. We both agreeed we made poor choices and hind sight is 20/20. I validated and it went well.

Which brings me to today she has been on the phone with me texting ALL day long. Sharing pictures of what tack she wants to buy and discussing horses again. She then wanted me to get ahold of a lady we bought a horse from a couple years ago to talk about a couple of the horses she has for sale. ( as I mentioned she has trouble with people.) Anyways I told her I would and I did. My only request after setting up a meeting with her was that this lady agreed to meet because I didnt burn the same bridges with her my wife did. She knows about our seperation and found it nice that I was still helping out the wife during this time. I told my wife that I would set it up but our personal life stays that way and I don't want to set up a meeting where I am the topic of being bashed or drug in the mud.

This actually got a conversation started on our current situation. She said she would not bash me because I am the father of her kids and there is nothing really to bash. She said she has enjoyed being friends and not fighting and that we were friends before we got together and married. She said maybe it should have stayed that way then changed her mind saying we had our son together and other stuff that was good. I replied that yes right now alot of negative is seen but there were plenty of good times and memories. She agreed and said well yeah there was lots of good if there wasnt I wouldnt still be talking to you. She then said she is fine where we are at right now and who knows where the future will lead but for now she wants to be friends and go from there.

So thats where I am at. The PMA and 180's are doing good and going strong. GAL is ok but ill get better after the move. sorry for the novel