Newcomer living in Hell

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W just came over to pick up the kids. she came in and sat down in the chair by me. made pleasant small talk bout her job and day. she asked if i had anything to drink and asked if i would drink a beer with her. just so happens that i had 2 kolsch style beers (the only beer we both like) and opened them for us. we played a couple of songs on youtube that the kids and she wanted to here. she was showing pics on her phone to D and i saw that she still had family photos from the vacay on it. i mentioned that me and S had been talking bout how cool it would be someday to get a cabin in the mountains for Christmas. she said that she had been thinking bout it and was planning on looking into it. while saying that she looked at me and said that she couldn't commit to it. i said that's cool, i was just thinking someday it would be cool. she mentioned that a hotel on mt. hood usually has deals around then so she must have been seriously considering it already to have that knowledge already. whatever, that's up to her, she would have to initiate that. she ended up staying here around 45 minutes. walked them all out to the car. she waited till after i put D in the car so she could get her python hug and kiss on her forehead. keep in mind, i never say i love you or tell her i'll always be there for her. i just make a point of the hugs and forehead kisses as my 180. i don't get my hopes up about them. she did mention that she wished that i had halloween off to go trick or treating with them. oh well, back to my fortress of solitude. what sux is that today while i was driving around today, i heard a song that i hadn't heard in years. bryan white's "i'm not supposed to love you anymore". of course i immediately burst into tears. wonder how many folks will now youtube that song. I HATE YOU BRYAN WHITE!! i love you my sweet girl (W's nick name).