WAW + divorce filed, Becoming-V2 - part 1

[B-V2]

Journaling:

There were some text exchanges on last week Friday with W, as I was obviously too eager to respond (rather than to wait for at least 48 hours) to her positive job hunting results.

Then on Sunday she invited me to join her for a concert in the evening for which she had tickets. As I happen to like the artist, and had ask her if it was her going to be with her friends (whoever that might include) and her reply being that it was just going to be her and me, I decided to go with her.
We had some drinks before, and I listening and validated while looking her in her eyes and we had nice interactions all the time - all smooth and sometimes (old familiar for me) signs of attraction from her side. The concert was good, we both enjoyed it.
On the way back I asked at some moment about going to sleep every evening by oneself (wrong subject, as this might be interpreted in so many wrong ways!), and her response was that I should be used to that now. That made me say a divorce related remark (as in: I am not used to it as I did not wanted her divorcing me), which although perhaps "right" did not add to being "happy" and was totally unnecessary from my part as she already knows that very well. So an awkward ending...

I do not have any illusion at the moment that my W is really missing me at all (i.e. she is not, because I have allowed too many interactions in the last four months) let alone anything beyond that, so back to Fartiltre advice: "act as if your W is never coming back and make yourself the happiest man in that light! Make this about you!"

And so I will.