Yup, you guys. YOU ARE RIGHT! and.... I am GOOD!!!!! I'm telling you. I feel better every day. I am starting to get control of myself!
I even feel like I can handle seeing her. In fact, I had a thought today...
I need the external hard-drive from xh. I have asked him a couple of times for it. (Here is the weird thing- xh is very ocd and organized. He knows where everything is! He said the other day that he would have to look for it. What??? I was annoyed thinking of it there... it has all my documents on it and all of our family photos. She has it. But, it's ok. She su<ks, and I ain't sweatin her!)
However, I had this thought of going to their house, texting him when I'm about 1 second away, and telling him I'm coming to get it. At this point, I have no problem walking right up to that house. What has happened to me? I donno... but I like it.
I am not afraid to see her. Yeah, I will feel it, but I've got nothing to worry about. She is garbage and not worth the scum on the bottom of my shoe. Skank.
(That info made me feel better too. Even as my friend said, well now you know her friends think she is a scumbag, too.)
I had a vivid dream last night- the first one that he wasn't in! Yes! (It was lame and weird though... but NOT HIM!) And he wasn't my first thought when I woke up. OK, second.... but not first!
The thought of her being so selfish... well xh is pretty selfish. This is not going to end well. Two selfish greedy people who would rather look out for themselves.... yeah, ok. Good luck.
Yes! I've got this. Really. You guys are the best. Thank you!
Ummmmmm.... LT, you don't know how many times I've thought about that. THAT would be funny.
