Keeping it real

[Zues126]

Just hit send on the email. Highlights:

-I've drawn up a legal separation dated today, will be bringing it over on Thursday to have it signed and acknowledged.
-I am looking for a place of my own
-It is time to separate finances
-I'll continue to provide 100% of my income through November to allow her some time to prepare
-Proposal about holiday schedules for this year (she can come with children to Thanksgiving, she could have the children for Xmas)
-FYI about a small expenditure I had to make for clothes for my new job

I am sick to my stomach right now. I might throw up. My attitude isn't the issue. I did what I had to do. My feelings, however, are that I am heartbroken and shaking right now with empathy for how she will likely feel, how tough her road will be, and scared of how she might react and how this will play out.

I pray I did this right. But I talked for weeks with two counselors, my attorney, my psychiatrist, both my parents, and have prayed at length. At the end of the day I have to act and cannot live life afraid of mistakes.

Nonetheless, a very, very, very hard moment in my life.