M, I am not surprised that ow is who she is. The MLCer most always affairs down....sometimes way, way down.
I cannot imagine how it feels to know that she is pregnant. I do agree with my friend, Bea. It was both of them. He could have chose differently.
I see such strength in you and such courage. I think that the idea of this baby being born is getting really big in your mind. That's not to say it isnt a big thing, because it is. But I think the anticipation of it, and what people are going to say and how your children will react, is causing you a lot of anxiety.
I always say that MLC doesnt give them a free pass. They still have to own their actions one day. But he is in crisis and he doesnt feel the things you do. He just cant. He is too busy trying to feel better. The sad thing is that he probably doesnt feel better and when the baby is born, he still wont.
So, there isnt anything you can do to change the fact that this baby is coming...except your mindset. I get the anger, the frustration and the outrage. I really do.
But the more you hold onto all the bad feelings, the more they get control of you. Dont give them one more ounce, M. Not one more.
That relationship is built on the destruction of a family with lies and deceit as its foundation. It is a house of cards which will come tumbling down.
But that doesnt matter right now. What matters is you and your children. Leave them to have to live with their choices.
She is not worthy of your headspace, M. Not at all.
